The Sparrow By Mary Doria Russell Access

The story ends not with a triumphant return to God, but with Emilio, his hands still ruined, sitting in a garden on Earth, listening to the wind. He is no longer a priest. He is no longer a believer. But he is still alive. And he is beginning, just beginning, to wonder if being alive might be enough.

Through all of this, Emilio prayed. He begged God for understanding, for relief, for a sign. No answer came. Only silence. And then, slowly, his faith curdled into something else. Not atheism—that would have been too easy. It was a cold, furious hatred of God. He had loved God with all his heart, and God had let this happen. He decided that God was not good, or loving, or just. God was a monster, and Emilio would no longer kneel. the sparrow by mary doria russell

The Society of Jesus, ever the explorer of frontiers, saw a mission. They secretly financed an expedition. Emilio would not go alone. He gathered a family of kindred spirits: Anne and George Edwards, the married scientists who first detected the signal; Jimmy Quinn, a brilliant but tormented engineer; Sofia Mendes, a fierce and wounded computer expert; Marc Robichaux, a veteran physician; and D.W. Yarbrough, a young, earnest technician. The story ends not with a triumphant return

The Sparrow is a story about first contact, but it is really a story about the silence of God, the nature of evil, and the terrifying, beautiful, broken miracle of human love. It asks the oldest question: If God is good, why do the innocent suffer? And it dares to answer: I don’t know. But I will sit with you in the darkness anyway. But he is still alive

The climax is not a battle. It is a conversation.

But the humans did not understand this at first. They saw a garden. Emilio, with his gift for tongues, quickly learned the language of the Runa. He made a friend: a gentle Runa named Supaari. He also met the Jana’ata, particularly a philosopher-poet named Askama. Emilio charmed everyone. He played music for them on his Spanish guitar, and they wept with joy.

What happened to him over the next ten months is the heart of the story’s horror. The Jana’ata had no concept of cruelty as humans understand it. They were simply… efficient. They had a use for everything, including intelligent beings. Emilio was given to a Jana’ata nobleman named Haddad, who found the human’s ability to speak and make music fascinating.